For day three of the #DailyArtDevotions 40-day #artjournal journey with Elizabeth Foley, I used day two’s quote for inspiration. I had planned on creating a self-portrait as a way to symbolize showing up to do the work. However, my first attempt was…well…terrible is putting it nicely. So, I pulled the watercolor paper off the page with the intention of gluing another sheet onto the page, but then I saw the rough surface, and I wondered what it would be like to create on the remnants of a torn off sheet of paper. I thought it would add some really cool texture to the drawing, and it did.
My intention was to try a self-portrait again, but it didn’t really work out that way. I used a photo of myself and then traced over it and transferred it onto the page with transfer paper, but when I did, the features did not show up on the rough surface. So, I just added features myself. I then used Ecoline markers, Bombay inks, and Posca pens to create the page below.
The quote from Julia Cameron does not have “love & approve” in it, only “approve,” but I accidentally put “love” so I added the “&” and kept on going. I made a lot of “mistakes” with this page, but I am proud of myself for staying with it. It is helping me to build confidence and proving that I can come up with solutions to unexpected issues both in my art and in my life.
For this 40-day journey, I am willing to give up my need to be perfect and create perfectly. Instead, I am just going to create, create, create, and hope that the perfectionist, critical voice will be silenced or at least will be a very gentle whisper by the end of the 40 days.
Though I was very hesitant to repurpose an old book, it is now one of my favorite things about this journey. I never would have thought to make an art journal out of an old cookbook!
My son goes back to school on the 22nd, and at that time, I am going to begin work on my novel once again. My intention is to work on my novel during the week, and then continue my art development journey on the weekends. My intention is to have a polished draft completed by December 31, 2018. I’m posting that here as a way to keep myself accountable.
It’s interesting how quickly I have already gotten myself out of the habit of creating daily, and how much longer it takes me to complete an art project because my days are filled up with other things now. But, I’ve made a lot of progress on a personal level integrating meditation and journaling back into my daily routine. I’ve also incorporated some dancing into my daily routine. It has become quite clear as of late that I have not been including fun as a daily requirement. Even those things that were fun, I have hijacked and made into something serious. I’m working on changing that.
For the past couple of days, I’ve been working my way through Elizabeth Foley’s Art of Spiritual Living Online Retreat session with Tamara Laporte. The session was to create a self-portrait in a mindful and meditative way, and I loved it. I used a slightly altered quote from Anne Lamott’s book Traveling Mercies: Some Thoughts on Faith which I just finished reading for a second time. It was even better the second time around!
I watched Nina Rycroft‘s A Beginner’s Guide to Drawing a Self Portrait on Skillshare last night. I thought that’s what I would try to do for day two of Find Your Flow. I woke up this morning, and the desire to dive right in to drawing wasn’t there. I have this belief that I have to be in the mood to draw (which I’m hoping to curb by participating in this program for thirty days straight). Rather than push it, I decided to run some errands, have some lunch, and then sit down to draw.
I wonder why things always look so much easier to do in a video (ha! ha!). I guess it’s a good thing because it suckers me into believing I can do it so I’m not as resistant to trying. Anyway, I began to draw and immediately got frustrated. It was not working out as effortlessly for me as it was for Nina on the video. I have this intolerance for the learning process and what it produces. In my writing and my art practice, I think perfection should just come flowing out of me effortlessly. Clearly, that’s never going to happen, but I hopelessly cling to that belief anyway. To ease my frustration, I took a break and than came back to it. I was still immensely frustrated. The final result is not what I imagined in my mind, but I reminded myself that taking part in this program is about building skills and a daily art practice, not about perfect outcomes. Success is measured in sitting down and drawing every day for thirty days; nothing else. So, here is my self-portrait: