Book Recommendation: Day Three

Many, many years ago, on New’s Years Eve, I had written down all the things I had wanted to accomplish in the next year. I wrote the list on one of the pages in the front of my Day-Timer, and promptly forgot all about it. A year later, when I went to put the next year’s calendar refill into my Day-Timer, I found it again. When I read it, I was floored because I had accomplished every single thing on the list, and these weren’t small things, these were really big dreams that I had, dreams I had no idea how to “make” happen, things like “become a firefighter.”

downloadAfter that experience, I wanted to know more about why that had worked so well. That is when I came across my next book recommendation: Write it Down, Make it Happen by Henriette Anne Klauser. This is another of my permanent collection books. It is a book I turn to when I need a sense of hope. Klauser discusses her own experiences with writing things down and how miraculous the practice was at created what she wanted in her life. I am always looking for ways to believe in some kind of magic while still having a sense of control about it. This practice of writing things down is something that has worked well for me since.

In my experience, it seems the act of writing things down, and then letting them go (out of my mind), works best. I have a very large glass jar that it’s very difficult to get things out of and is dark blue so I can’t see into it. I write things I am most anxious about, things I wish I could have, and big dreams I hope to accomplish onto little strips of paper and then drop them into the jar. Every new year, I shake out the papers from the jar, and I am astounded by how many things 1) I forgot I had written down and 2) were miraculously taken care of. So many of them were HUGE worries that I was incredibly anxious about, and I was amazed at how they seemed so small in hindsight (once they were magically resolved of course). However, if there are things that I pull out of the jar that have not been resolved or achieved, then I re-evaluate whether they are sill important to me, and if they are, I drop them back into the jar for the next year. It is a practice that is very similar to that first New Year’s resolution list I wrote in my Day-Timer and then forgot about, and it is, to date, the most successful practice I’ve had that has allowed me to be able to look back on the things that I’ve wanted, written down, and dare I say, made happen.

Fantastic Beasts: Day One and a Little Magic

Today has been a magical day!

Of course, it started out like any other ordinary day, as most magical days do. I finished editing a chapter of a friend’s novel, and then I began Marielle Stolp’s Fantastic Beasts Ever After 2018 lesson. I decided to do the painting on 11 x 15 watercolor paper, which is the largest paper I’ve completed a piece of art on in my life! The sketch for the painting took me six hours to complete, and I absolutely love it! I’m excited to ink and paint it, but I’m exhausted, so that will have to wait for another day. Though completing such a large sketch is quite magical for a beginning artist like me, that is not what made today so special.

As many of you may know, I am a writer. Writing is something I’ve been doing since I was a child. Many of you may also know that I’ve been working on a novel for seven years, but have been stuck for many of those years. I know this novel needs to be written. I know it is something that will bring hope and peace to many once it’s done. But…it’s the getting done that’s the issue.

A couple of weeks ago, I was on Facebook and came across a post about a scholarship to a writing conference and fiction workshop. After a long hiatus, I decided to return to my beloved novel and polish up the first scene of the first chapter and submit it for the scholarship. The decision of who won was supposed to be made last Friday, so I assumed, since I hadn’t heard anything, that I had not won. I felt disappointed, and started down that “my writing isn’t good enough” road. Over the last ten years, I have applied for a scholarship to this conference two other times and did not win, so the disappointment ran deep. I allowed myself some time to feel the disappointment, and then I returned to a focus on my art.

While sketching today, I stopped to take a break and checked my e-mail. As I was scrolling through I saw “Congratulations, Scholarship Winner.” I opened the e-mail, and there it was: “You’ve been selected to receive a scholarship…” So many emotions flooded through me, but what really mattered most was that someone, other than me, believed in my writing enough to grant me a scholarship to attend a conference and workshop that will help me gain the tools I need to bring this novel to completion.

There is this energy I’ve been feeling lately both with my writing and my art. I can feel it building as I sit down to complete my daily practice. I don’t know where all this is going, but I’m showing up every day so I can find out! I can feel that shift everyone talks about happening to me, and I can’t wait to see where it all leads.