Well…since starting the #FindYourFlow thirty day program, my house has never been so clean! I spent a couple of hours this morning cleaning (something I never do) so that I could avoid the anxiety I feel when I sit down to draw. I need to have things planned out in advance, need to know exactly what I’m doing, and this daily practice is testing me more than I thought it would. It is one thing to say that I will do something, and quite another to actually sit down and do it. For example, I like to buy art supplies but have a much harder time sitting down to use them. Of course, this is different if I know exactly what I’m going to do with them. For this program, though, instead of planning out every day, I’ve decided to go with my intuition. It’s bringing up all kinds of issues for me because I always need to feel in control of everything. Even though I know I control very little, it is really about feeling in control for me. Because of my lack of skills, this practice is way out of my comfort zone of imaginary control.

Today I decided to start Nina Rycroft‘s face shapes class on Skillshare. I thought I would just plow right through the whole class – ha! ha! – but changed my mind, slowed down, and stuck only to the first video of the course – kite-shaped faces. I am fascinated that no matter what I think I’m going to draw, the result is fairies or other mythical creatures. I sense a theme emerging. We shall see.

I find myself struggling with not creating something pretty or eye-pleasing to look at. It feels like it’s not art if it’s rough sketches or dare I say it again…not perfect. But this is all about showing up and putting something down on the page – not perfection, not pretty, just something.

So, with that being said, here are today’s sketches: