Art · art journal

A Message and A Vision

Today, while journaling, I had a very clear vision come to me, and with it came a message. I then tried to recreate the vision in my art journal with an abbreviated part of the message. Though I don’t normally share what I write in my journal, this message feels like it was meant to be shared.

Have fun! Enjoy all these new discoveries I am bringing to you; new ways of thinking, of being. It is fun, isn’t it? This is not work or punishment, it is your Divine Right, your purpose. Make it fun. There is always enough time. There is always enough time. Your dreams are all coming true. You cannot see it now, but it is already happening. Step into it. Take my hand, walk through the dimensions with me. You are already there. There is nothing you need to do or be. It is already done. Soften, listen, open, receive graciously. We are bringing gifts directly to your door, open it up, leave the past behind. Open the door and let the light in. You do not have to live one more day in the darkness. Open the door, let us in. Soften, breath, receive graciously. Do not turn away. We stand at the threshold with abundant gifts for you. Soften, breathe, listen to the sound of our knocking. Your gifts, they are here. Receive them. You need not determine your worthiness, these gifts, they are your birthright. Open up the door, dear girl, let the light shine in. You need not spend one more moment in the darkness. It is an illusion. Remember, it is an illusion. Let the light shine in. Soften. Receive graciously that which is already yours. Enjoy. This, my love, is fun, is joy, is what it means to be alive. Smile. 

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Art · art journal

Planting A New Story

Today, I stepped into a creative flow that I haven’t experienced very often, but hope to experience much more often in the future. In my writing practice, I have been doing something different. I have been coming to the blank page and writing what comes to me, and it is working! I wrote 2000 words today, and a part of the puzzle was put into place.

I normally write in a chronological way, and I get stuck wondering…what happens next??? and my creative flow just stops. But when I come to the blank page, and just write a description of whatever image I see or words I hear in my head, scenes just start to branch out from there, and I spent most of the time trying to get it all down in a frenzied state. Another approach that has been working for me is starting out asking the question “What if…” at the top of the blank page and then creating a scene with whatever comes to my mind first.

Today, an image and words showed up. My protagonist emerged as an 8 year old in an orphanage and said to me, “I was angry all the time, even at a very young age. I could never figure out where the anger came from.” And the story just took off from there.

Stepping into the creative writing flow might have something to do with taking the weekend off from writing. I decided on a creative practice routine which includes writing Monday through Friday and then making art on Saturday and Sunday. My grandmother passed away on Saturday, August 25th, and that brought me into the space of grieving. Maybe moving into a different space, created space for my creative mind to slow down and breathe. As I sat on the couch last night, binge watching television, an idea I had had before for an art journal project I’m working on came back to me in a sudden flash. I have been creating an art journal using pages from Meera Lee Patel’s Start Where You Are and an art journal I made by hand. I ripped out the next page in the book which had to do with leaving behind old stories that no longer work for you. You can see the page from the book on the left side of the spread below with my flower embellishments. On the right, is the layered garden I created with my old stories/beliefs, black gesso, textured paintbrush ends, gel pens, my new stories/beliefs, watercolor paints, and Gelatos. Along with the pictures below, I discuss the process I used to create the garden.

The prompt from the book was “What do you wish you could leave behind?” So, I wrote my answers out all over the page as you can see below. They included old stories I have been living through the lens of and old, worn out beliefs that I have been living by.

Then I covered them all up with a homemade black gesso (I mixed black acrylic paint with white gesso) as a way to erase them, but also to create the soil to sow the seeds of new stories and new beliefs. Then I ran a textured paintbrush end all along the page to till the soil.

Then I added some embellishments with watercolors and with a gold gel pen wrote out my new stories and my new beliefs that I want to embody to serve as a kind of fertilizer for the garden, and then added golden dots throughout to serve as seeds.

Then on top of that layer, I added the blooms using watercolors and Gelatos to signify the blooming of these new stories and new beliefs in my life.