
I’ve always had a warped sense of how things should be. It is the thing that most often brings me down. I had this dream of writing the perfect first draft of a novel, no revision necessary. Yes, you can laugh, it is quite funny. But, I had developed a bad habit in college of sitting down at the last minute and writing papers (even if it took all night), and it had worked really well for me. I trained myself to self edit as I wrote, and after many, many, many years in college, it became a natural way for me to write. It wasn’t that I didn’t do revisions, but I wrote/edited/revised all at the same time, and all in one sitting. This did not carry over well to novel writing. It was impossible for me to sit down and write a novel in one sitting, and so I got stuck, and then I quit writing altogether.
Enter art.
Unfortunately, my bad habit of trying to create in one sitting has carried over to my art practice. I sometimes spend upwards of eight hours working on a piece. I forget to eat. I forget to drink. I forget everything but creating. I am working on changing that, but it seems to be something that is hardwired in my brain. Even when I try to walk away, my mind is buzzing with ideas about it, and I end up going back to it. Despite this bad-habit carryover, I have learned a very important lesson from the process of creating art. What art taught me, what creating art has helped me to see, is that my art can look like total shit, and I can think there is no hope for it, but then I add another layer, and maybe another layer, and maybe just one more layer, and then something beautiful emerges. I cannot tell you how many times I have looked at a piece of art when I am done and wonder how in the hell, me, who started out with zero artistic talent, could create something so beautiful out of nothing.
It took me a while to believe this could be applied to my writing, too. With my writing, I had always believed I needed to have everything perfectly planned out first. But with my art, I have learned that it is okay to jump right in, throw a bunch of shit at the page, and see what comes out. This has helped me to let go of “perfect first draft” syndrome. And now that I am nearing the end of the second draft of my first novel, I am getting excited about starting on the third draft. This kind of thinking would never have been possible without my experience creating art.
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When I started writing my first novel idea, I would write long hand as much as I could get out of my head. Then I would type it up on my laptop, editing and adding as I went. And then life happened and the words stopped coming. I’m trying to get back to writing like I’ve wanted to.
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Oh, I hope that you do. It took me seven years to get back to writing. I did what I had to do during that time, but I did not do it for the love of writing. Now, I am finally writing what I want, though the critic slips in quite often. I tried long hand, too, for a long time, but it got overwhelming for me.
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yay for writing! Proud of you for getting back into it. I, too, get wrapped up in art and forget things like bedtime all the time. Balance takes practice.
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Yes, it takes a lot of practice for sure! Thank you!
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I like to do in one sitting but watercolours need to dry. I have a few ways round ….lots of different pieces on the go and drying with heat gun…not sure either are of any use to writing though!
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I like your comparison of the two creative forms and how what we can apply to one can also work for another. Very interesting. I’m pondering now how I approach both things. Thank you!
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I think it’s wonderful how you found the connection between these two creative pursuits. Sounds like a good lesson learned.
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Yes! Thank you!
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